I know you are, but what am i?

Changed for the better

2005-09-07T04:17:12Z

woa, revisiting the relm of livejournal. thought this was worth posting.

Latley i've noticed a change in my personality, i've started to see the good in things and not the bad. I think the emo attitude is gone, which is good since being sad all the time sucks. This weekend i came to a big conclusion on what i want out of girls, well actually one girl, i don't know who exactly but im absolutly positive that i want a real gf, the unattatched hook up is just not for me. I want to have that closeness, not jsut one night and its over. I'm actually trying in school, and if you've know me for a while you'll think, "wtf!! zac trying in school?!" yea its true, i actually care now that i'm in college. I get to take classes that interest me and that is something high school did not offer me. I'm gald that a lot of my friends are going to school now, but I've noticed that alot of my friends are having trouble in life and i jsut want you all to know that i'm here to talk to, it always helps to have someone to talk to, and i will try to give advice so if you wanna talk aobut shit hit me up. Don't get me wrong I still have a lot of the same problems but i'm really trying to work them out and become a better person. I don't know what else to say so i huess i'll just say...

peace out from the guy in oceanside,

Zac

is this me?

2005-05-06T15:37:53Z

Your Birthdate: September 15

With a birthday on the 15th of any month, you are apt to have really strong attachments to home, family and domestic scene.

The 1 and 5 equaling 6, provide the sort of energy that makes you an excellent parent or teacher.

You are very responsible and capable.

This is an attractive and an attracting influence.

You like harmony in your environment and strive to maintain it.

You tend to learn by observation rather than study and research.

You may like to cook, but you probably don't follow recipes.

This number shows artistic leanings and would certainly support an talents that may be otherwise in your makeup.

You're a very generous and giving person, but perhaps a bit stubborn in ways.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Its 1:12 am

2005-04-16T08:20:59Z

So tonight was a very bomb night!! Gotta hang out with all the people i havn't seen in like a month, it was great, i forgot how much fun it was to chill with friends. So yesterday can be divided as shit and badass. Shit: School!!!

Badass: went to seths, zac and sam show up( badass)...
go get some lucky's then go to alex's for steph's b-day...
got to be there for L.K.'s 1st roll. lol awsome! lol...
just lot of fun...
Went home at 12 and mom said i could stay out till 1, very very cool of her...
Back to alex's hang out a lil more...
came home...
and now im writing in the livejournal that i havn't used in like 2 months.

TONGIHT WAS FUCKING BADASS!!!!!!

"geometry" = pot

2005-03-02T04:40:43Z

So today me steph leave school and do some "geometry" on the way to get chinese food, then go to my house, do some more " geomerty" and then watched harold and kuamer, tnhen watched donnie darko, then took her home now im home and out of "geometry"

soooooo bored

2005-02-18T02:05:51Z

RELATIONSHIPS
How many people have you dated this past year?: 0
How many people have you kissed in your life?: 8
How many people have you said "I love you too" and meant it?: my friends, but no gf
Have you ever had a hard time getting over someone?: yes
Are you friends with your ex/exes?: no
Have you ever cheated on someone?: no
Have you ever been cheated on?: yes
What's the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you?: no ones ever done anything romantic for me
What do you look for in your ideal mate?: sense of humor.
Biggest Turn-ons: smile
Turn-offs: fakes
Best quote to sum up love:

Morals/Beliefs
What religion are you?: Christian
Do you got to church regularly?: no
What do you think happens when you die: You find your soul mate
Do you believe in God?: yes
Satan?: definatly
Angels?: yes
Heaven?: yes
Hell?: yes
Are you a virgin?: yes
What do you think of abortion?: only if your raped
Suicide?: if you comit suicide you don’t deserve to be alive
Flag burning?: I dont care
War?: for the right reasons
Pop music?: satan

What Did You Do...
Last weekend?: Hung out with brent, seth, and john
Yesterday?: Bought the DCer
Your last birthday?: TGIFridays with jeane seth and jard
New Years Eve?: up in Oceanside alone
Valentines Day?: sat in my room being all emo
Easter?: ummm I don’t kow
4th of July?: went to camp land with mike, jard, Krista ( when she was cool), jeane, darcie, seth, nate, and other ppl
Halloween?: Hung out
Thanksgiving?: VEgas
Christmas Eve?: Got ungrounded
Christmas Day?: Family then oceanside

What do you think you'll be doing in...
A week from now?: Hanging out with friends
A month from now?: hanging out with frinds
A year from now?: hanging out with friends
5 years from now?: either married or dead
10 years from now?: dead
20 years from now?: dead
50 years from now?: an angel

Ever Been Called...
Dumb?: all the time
Retarded?: of course
Ugly?: yes
Hot?: ummm mabey
Fat?: only by drunk ppl
Anorexic?: no
A waste of space?: in more words
Useless?: yep
Sexy?: yea, but she was under the influence
Smelly?: no
A Slut?: no
Beautiful?: no
Smart?: yes
Quiet?: yeah
Boring?: yea
A Bitch?: no
Rebel?: no
Conceited?: yeah

Currently
What are you wearing?: nothing… jk…pants boxers and shirt
Who are you talking to?: the voices
How is the weather?: rainy
What are you listening to?: my dryer
What/Who are you thinking about?: how nachos are good
What are you eating/drinking?: nachos and fruit punch
What are you looking forward to?: after school tomorrow
What are you dreading?: school
How are you feeling?: bored
How is your hair?: messy
What time is it?: 5:52
What are you annoyed by?: fake ppl

When Was The Last Time You..
Burped?: at lunch
Kissed?: too long
Had sex?: never
Went to the movies?: IDk
Went out to eat?: Tuesday
Cried?: Monday
Got dumped?: last spring
Dumped someone?: Last march
Went skating?: a year ago?
Went for a walk?: before I got my car
Ate* ice cream?: last night
Got into a fight?: idk its been a few days

Three Things

3 things you enjoy doing
1. Friends
2. Using the Dcer…J
3. Warm apple pie…im serious…or am I?

3 people you love
1. My Friends
2. My dog
3. The guy who invented energy drinks

3 foods you are addicted to
1. Lucky Charms
2. Candy Barz
3. A good steak

3 things you hate
1. Being alone
2. Fakes
3. Being alone

shows you watched when you were little
1. Power Rangers…the original not the 1000 spin offs
2. Ahhh real monsters
3. Rockos Modern Life

3 wishes
1. Love
2. Happieness
3. Wealth

Who was the last person you...
Talked to?: Mike
Yelled at?: My mom
Kissed?: Idk
Hugged?: Idk
Went out to eat with?: ummm Seth
Flirted with?: everyone
Talked to on the phone?: mike
IMed?: marci
E-Mail?: idk I dotn e-mail
Got flowers from?: Noones ever gotten me flowers
Made love to?: my hand
Danced with?: Darcie
Fought with?: mom
Worried about?: I’m going to die alone
Wanted to kill?: my mom
Cried over?: Me
Thought about?: me

dontcalmeafizle @ 2005-02-17T17:17:00

2005-02-18T01:17:26Z

yea so we got our internet turned back on, yey, no i have something to do when im home alone.

dontcalmeafizle @ 2005-02-09T21:24:00

2005-02-10T05:24:16Z

YEa so i finally got a myspace.

dontcalmeafizle @ 2005-02-09T16:01:00

2005-02-10T00:01:58Z

click HERE to see what kinda druggie
you are!

Good 2nd half of a day

2005-02-09T01:47:29Z

So today sucked balls untile i ghot home chilled with seth and fanny, then jeane and danny came. we watched blow, badass movie. overall good day after school.

dontcalmeafizle @ 2005-02-08T07:00:00

2005-02-08T15:01:06Z

have you ever had a dream/nightmare were you wake up all freaked out and are scared shitless because it seemed so real and at the same time your filled with the most profound sense of hope that mabey parts of the dream are true? that mabey you're life was ment for something? even if you have, have you gone back to sleep and had the same exact dream? idk that happened to me last night and i'm kinda freaked out, but what can you do about it, i'm off to school, YEY!!!!!! (insert middle finger here).

Yea, schools ghey

2005-02-07T23:05:28Z

so school sucks balls right now, all my classes are boring and ghey and i see no point in me being in any of them, it seems like im just wasting my fuking time, but wat can you do about it. Well lifes gonig really slow, for me at least, which sucks cause everyone else is finding people and shit, i mean wen seth and fanni start dating im the only single one left in El cajon, yey!!!!!!!!!!! So my step-dads gone for 10 days which will be fun since wen he's gone my mom is almost never home.

God i can't wait till the weekend is here.

Stole this from Jarrad

2005-01-19T05:55:09Z

Post a memory of me in my comments...
It can be anything you want.
Then post this to your journal and see what people remember of you.

Yey for new classes... not really.

2005-01-18T23:28:17Z

This weekend kinda sucked but what can you do about it, Thursday and Sunday where good so thats good. Met Lauren and Corrin
they fit in with our group really well and they're fun.

So today we started new classes which was cool cause i was getting really tired of the old ones. So heres my schedual:
First block, wieght training: easy class as long as i do something, plus i want to get all not lazy as i am now.
Second Block, Pre-Cal, Hard class but i sit next to friends from my Algebra 2 class.
Third block, AP Physics, Kinda hard yearlong class but i took a nap today in it. And i sit next to people from it in second block so I'll just copy the hw off of them.
Fourth block, Econ/Gov., Honors so it may be hard but then again im going to steal all of jeane's work from last term.

dontcalmeafizle @ 2005-01-10T16:35:00

2005-01-11T00:35:58Z

You scored as Stoner.

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Stoner

94%

Punk/Rebel

81%

Ghetto gangsta

44%

Prep/Jock/Cheerleader

44%

Goth

31%

Loner

31%

Drama nerd

25%

Geek

What's Your High School Stereotype?
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<3

2004-12-23T23:09:02Z

man i love nate. he is such a pimp.

dontcalmeafizle @ 2004-12-14T14:14:00

2004-12-14T22:19:48Z

This is what you do when you have nothing else to do.

You scored as You will die utterly alone.. You got Donnie Darko3d!!1! The bad news is that you will die alone, cold, and dejected. The good news is that it'll be in a spectacular fashion involving possible feedback loops, parallel dimensions, and other paradoxes (if you like that sort of thing.) You'll certainly leave them guessing, anyways.

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You will die utterly alone.

75%

In front of your computer

70%

Stroke.... Massive stroke

60%

Heart attack

55%

You'll go down in flames for what you believe in

55%

How Will You Die?
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You scored as Heman. By the power of GraySkull. . . you're the toughest guy to ever wear a loin cloth. Rock on Heman.

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Heman

58%

Strawberry Shortcake

42%

Shera

33%

Voltron

33%

Smurf

33%

Transformers

25%

Thundercats

17%

Which 1980's Cartoon Character are you?
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You scored as Angel. you are true angel. you're intentions aren't to hurt the ones you love. you are very open minded and don't let the world get the best of you. in realtionships you are loyal, and trustworthy, but you expect the same from your other.

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You scored as Age 13-19 years. Yeah, you're cool! Live life like you'll be 18 forever! WHOOP!

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Age 13-19 years

80%

20-35

80%

Age 0-12 years

50%

Age 36-70 years

40%

Age 71+ years

How old is your SOUL?
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dontcalmeafizle @ 2004-12-06T20:51:00

2004-12-07T05:05:05Z

I think I'm going to start updating again since its something to do and i have alot on my mind. I guess that's what happens when all you can do is think. I miss everyone eventhoguh i see alot of them at school, but its just not the same. The past couple weeks have sucked major balls, I've been grounded and im still going to be grounded for another 2 1/2 weeks, but its ok cause i get to spent the last week of winterbreak free. Yea it sucks being at home by myself all the time. I wish people would come see me since nobiody is ever home, but what can you do about it.

I should get a car this sunday which is awsome cause i hate not knowing how im getting home everyday. All i want for christmas is cash so I can fix up my car and make it bad ass. I hope i get a car with guts this time, man my Mazda had no power, it was worse than Jard's "go-cart". I drove my mom's SUV today to go get McDonalds and i was so happy I could actually get up my hill without flooring it.

Well it seems like everything is getting fucked up and i know nothing about it since i only hear hearsay and am never there wen the shit hits the fan. Wow it really sucks that Darcie has to move back it with her mom, i've only got to hang out with her once in the past 2 months.

What Life is all About

2004-11-15T05:29:23Z

Today was an example of what life is all about, came home from my yacht in coronado, lol, hung out at castelman's getting better at CS and using my $500 dollar comp finally, then came home, mike calls, he comes over and humg out, we had a nice sessin in my living room while we watched Blow, good movie, Johny Depp is a bad ass, learn about drug smuggling, Haven't hung out with just mike in a long time, it was cool, thnx man.
Lifes good, can get better, but its good. Need a girl, but thats aobut it, o yeah and a lil cash.

Finally updating again,
Zac

dontcalmeafizle @ 2004-11-04T20:51:00

2004-11-05T04:57:10Z

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk away!

I don't know why but i find alot of meaning in this song, for some reason it speaks to me. Then again that's what good music is suposed to do, isn't it? Relate to our experiances or dreams or fears? Isn't music ment to enspire? To change our lifes on some level no matter how small?

dontcalmeafizle @ 2004-10-18T16:21:00

2004-10-18T23:23:09Z

YEY I GOt MY DRIVERS LICENSE!! I dont know wen i get my car, but I GOT MY DRIVERS LICENsE!!

GHEY

2004-10-16T05:29:51Z

Tonight was really fucking ghey! Not one of the ppl who said they would call me if people were hanging out called me back! Then no one would leave Castelman's to pick me up even though I LIVE 5 MINUTES AWAY FROM HIM!! I am really pissed off right now. Its so fucking boring here doin nothing!

dontcalmeafizle @ 2004-10-07T18:21:00

2004-10-08T01:27:21Z

Well nothing is going on today, today was really boring except for luch was awsome cause danny's mom brought us pizza! yea she's awsome. During french krista said i should dress up like Jesus for halloween and give out monopoly money to bums and then mike should be satan, that would be funny. If im not jesus im going to get angel wings and dye them black and just wear those with my normal clothes or something, idk. came home and didnt do anything at all for 3 hours, then right when i go outside for a cig my step-dad comes home, wat fun!!

Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face

Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

[Chorus]

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to runaway

[Chorus]

This pain you gave to me

You take it all
You take it all away...
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me

-good song

-Zac-

WOW

2004-10-07T04:51:41Z

WoW, no one had anything today! thats crazy! but it was fun anyways!

I hung out with nate and laura and seth and seths mom and brent! it was fun, we hung out at seths, went to supercuts( i no longer have to scrub it), then to ross (i got a tie)
then nates
then seths
and then nates jaccuzzi!
Alex G came to the jaccuzzi, i have seen him in a while it was cool.

YEY i get my car and liscense next thursday! Forget the taking back sunday concert im going to listen to the 1st cd and stray light run in my car in my new sterio so there!!
Talk to me sometime if you want to join in on the christening of my car! ;)!

brent is so awsome! this is the ultimatest saying "like when a fat black chick is pissing you off you can say ' my mom told me never to hit a lady, but she never sauid anything about a guerilla!' *PUNCH IN THE FACE!*"- a brenty original!

"the mexican who cares (sometimes)", Zac

TROZ

2004-09-28T02:18:13Z

pinky and the brain pwns!

in other news school is getting a lil better, film is actually getting interesting, french is getting easier,k and ap physics, well that still sux, but 2 out of 3 isnt too bad!

YEY i get to go see my chemical romance on wedesday! HAHA If you cant go that sucks for you!

idk theres nothing else really new going on in this life of mine. the gf search isn't moving forward at all, i get my liscence the day before the tbs cincert, i still have alot of coffee, i have a giant bug bite, i like cheese, i just found 10 pairs of ear plugs in my ears, i love candy; except black licorish, my dog is the shit eventhough he's a giant dumb ass, and one last thing, TRoZ!!

Mucho love,
"The Mexican"~Zac

dontcalmeafizle @ 2004-09-22T22:03:00

2004-09-23T05:09:32Z

well nothing exciting is going on in my life right now, except for me and mikes little investment. FRIDAY pARTY!! IDK WHERE YET BUT THERE IS GOING TO BE ONE!!

So shit isnt working out for some of my friends which sux

For all of those who are asking about me and catherine, we arnt going out. Idk if we will or won't, belive me if i was dating h er you guyz would know, i would be really happy. but lets not jump ahead.

Sooo friday is gonig to be fun! hopefully everyone comes down cause me and mike r probly sponsoring the event. If you want to go just im me and ask about it or call my cell!

me and mike are going to make soo much money!

i love coffee! Starbucks is the shit!

MUCh love,
"the mexican who cares"
Zac w/ <3